The slippery slope of artistic despair – the moment you think, “I can not do it! I don’t want to! I’ll just have a sandwich instead.”
This is where a structure really helps. This is how you avoid the panic. This is how all the discipline you put into place actually keeps you going.
I came to this place to write. I carved out a big hunk of my schedule, took myself out of the loop and found myself with this solitude. And I can feel the fear slipping in, the panic. . . the “what if I came all the way out here and I came up with nothing? What if it’s all a big waste of time?”
But the years of just getting on with it are stronger and can hold back the waves, like a well built dam, it only lets the smallest trickles of that water through.