The dings and scratches on my ego happen so often. I sometimes miss that they’ve happened until later. But an artist’s life is a landmine for this.
In a scarcity arts economy, there is intense competition that is usually heavily veiled. It is competition disguised as community or cooperation. But jealousies abound. And to retain the idea that somehow my art is still worth something even as I watch my peers get the opportunities I’ve been refused, I have to pull a neat trick not to start beating myself, metaphorically speaking.
But I must find ways to support my own vision – as no one else will. So I shall.